Dearest Little Ones-
If there is one thing I want you to know, it’s that no matter where you are, no matter what is happening, you’re NOT unwanted. You’ll probably question this over the years. I know I did when I was growing up. Growing up isn’t easy. Growing up as an adopted kid can be tough sometimes, but there is one thing that you’ll understand someday – you were NEVER unwanted. You may not even be born yet, and you’re wanted.
I wonder what life will be like when you get here. Sometimes I day dream about what it will be like to tuck you in at night, to laugh w/ you, to comfort you when you’re sad and to guide you along your life to see what adventures await you. Sometimes it is just those daydreams and knowing what you’re out there that makes this whole process bareable. Today I argued w/ the agency about some puny little interoffice process, but knowing that you’re at the end of this tunnel helps me keep perspective. Your dad is good at reminding me of that.
I know you and I will probably “get” each other in a different way than you’ll get your dad, but I know that you two will develop your own special language too. He can show you a lot about sports and hunting – and I know he’s looking forward to meeting you too.
We’re family, but just don’t know it yet.
– Your mom.